Sketch booking

Drawing in a sketchbook is something I used to love, well I still love it but I don't do it so much. I love the book quality. In Spain they mostly do ring bound sketchbooks, which don't really do it for me. I like feeling like I've made my own book. Some of my best drawings have been done in sketchbooks. Is it that feeling of freedom, that feeling that this piece isn't and doesn't need to be definitive? I think so. I get so drunk on images by other people that I get a kind of art hang over and then I can't make my own stuff.

On Saturday I went out for a meal with some artists from my studio building. It was so much fun. They talked a bit about how they work. The process of letting go of your surroundings and focusing on your work. I used to do this so easily but it's been a while since I've been able to immerse myself so completely. But now I know that once I've managed to relax and enjoy what I'm doing art will be a different thing for. Now it's just another stick to hit myself with.

List of art related worries:

1. I felt and sometimes feel like I should have gone to do a post grad in some posh art school.
2. I feel limited in terms of concepts and ideas, that is, limited by fear of judgement and disapproval.
3. I don't believe in myself.

List of positive art related stuff:

1. I draw well.
2. I paint well with watercolour.
3. I take good photos.
4. I have a sense of humour which comes out in the work I do... sometimes.

Returning to the sketchbook world, the world inside your sketchbook where you draw anything and you write strange ideas and stories. The manifestation of your creative interior.
So I just found this website where people do stuff like this... sketchbook sharing type stuff. I'm excited... dear Universe please can I have the Internet in my studio even though Telefonica say it's not possible???